My World

Happy birthday Jin and Lena!!!!

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 07:18:56 GMT

On July 2nd 2008 Lena became 24! Yay! I'm wishing you a very happy year, an ever better career, and a good time with all the people that you love.

And also (though I'm three days early), Happy Birthday Jin! Happy 24! I wish you all happiness in the world. In your career, love live, and friendship. I hope you will reach all of your dreams!

And if it's not clear already that I ship Jin-Lena, I hope you can have a love life. Go get married! This is insane, but please, please, can you give me one pic of paparazzi catching you both together in Shibuya? Please.....Give me a happy end!!!!!

Fangirl Chat

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 05:21:36 GMT

I found the chat with my friend Faroch-Bi was funny. Therefore, I want to share it with you. Faroch-Bi is one of my best friends from university. She was a fervent fan of Yamapi. She is still a Yamapi fan, but recently Yamapi has been pushed down to number two by a certain Yamada Ryosuke. We were chatting on Wednesday, June 25, and I think it’s funny. We were on our full fangirl mode and talked about our JE idols. I forgot how it began, but I was telling her that there are a lot of rumors about Jin and Kame wondering on nightclubs and having one night stands with girls. Coming alone to the club and going home with a girl sort of thing. Please take more attention in the word “rumors”. Do I believe in that particular rumor? It’s another story to tell.

Anyway, Faroch-Bi likes to say dramatic things with a straight tone. That was one of the occasions. A little info : I like to nickname people I consider close to me. Bi is one of it. It means the same like the Bi in Bishoujo or Bishounen. I call Kinta, Faroch, and another friend with Bi. They call me the same too.

Our conversation :

Faroch-Bi : What if Kame asked you to do that?
Lia-Bi       : I will….(and left the chat to read LJ, intentionally)
Faroch-Bi : You will….?
Lia-Bi       : It’s impossible. Though I’m obsessed with Kame, though I love him, it’s impossible for me to do a one night stand. What about you if it’s Yamapi?
Faroch-Bi : I won’t do it as far as I can…..
Lia-Bi       : Sou ka?
Faroch-Bi : But what if it happened to you like in Anego?
Lia-Bi       : I could never be in a situation like that!
Faroch-Bi : Who knows? Besides, we’re imagining here.
Lia-Bi       : Okay, okay. Let’s imagine. In Anego, it happened because she was drunk, right?
Faroch-bi : Hai
Lia-Bi      : Okay, let’s say that I’m dead drunk. But I still can’t think that I won’t be awake when anyone asks to make love to me. And it’s Kame too! It’s impossible! And I will still say no.
Faroch-Bi : But what if Kame insists?
Lia-Bi       : If Kame insists, I will still say no. Let him remember me as the only girl who ever refused sleeping with him
Faroch-Bi : (rolling on the floor, laughing)
Faroch-Bi : How about kissing?
Lia-Bi       : If it’s just kissing, BRING IT!!!
Faroch-Bi : I knew it!
Lia-Bi       : He seemed like and expert so….
Faroch-Bi : Yeah

Hehe. Funny isn’t it? Oh us fangirls! And all the things we say and imagine about them……

Ueda's Tale Chapter 27

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 04:04:04 GMT

Chapter 27 : Personal Angel

Summary : Paparazzi relished the occasion of Ueda’s public date and pictures starting to flood in everywhere. There was also a family meeting, where the Uedas and the Lantouchers met each others formally for the first time. After that, Ueda almost gave up and let down his defense. He was just catching up his breath when another disaster happened…..

Word Count : 4,119

Pictures of Ueda and Marie-Therese’s date hit the medias the next day, with every tabloid claiming their front page with : “First ever exclusive scoop : Ueda Tatsuya’s Romantic Date”. Pictures of them were also posted in the internet. Pictures of them holding hands in the middle of Cosmopark, pictures of them eating lunch, pictures of them standing in line to go to the Ferris Wheel, and many more. Fans or no fans but knew who Ueda is, had their comments.

Some says again they are broken hearted. Some screamed, “Anybody knows who she is?”. Some said that they are a perfect couple, some said angrily, “I’m going to kill her! Get away from Ueda!”.

A girl said, “You know what I hate the most from this attack of pictures of Ueda’s date? It’s the fact that he was smiling broadly all the time with that girl!!! I can’t stand it!!!”

Another one said, “I’m happy for Tat-chan. They look so cute together!!!”

Until one post in a KAT-TUN fans blog caught the attention from fans all over the world;

“I know this girl! I went to the same school with her.

Her name is Marie-Therese Lantoucher. Third grade.

She is the daughter of the current Ambassador of France for Japan : Monsieur Henri Lantoucher.

Though I hate to say this, Marie-Therese is a very nice girl”.

After several pages of comments, somebody bring this up :

“Wait. This Marie is still in the third grade of high school. That means she is 17 or 18 right? And they must have dated for at least a couple of years. Doesn’t that mean Ueda is dating a minor? Hey, that’s illegal!!!”

The next day, the tabloids and magazines made reports titled scandalously as “Ueda Tatsuya is dating a minor”. The article created angry reactions, and people started to scorn Ueda on the internet for his indecent relationship, considering that he is 26 and his fiancé is only 18. Though the reaction was wide, Johnny’s Entertainment remained silent and commenting nothing, and KAT-TUN’s activities kept going on as usual. But when their show, Cartoon KAT-TUN reached the lowest rating point ever, something happened that cleared Ueda from all the negative remarks.

A reporter caught Monsieur Henri Lantoucher after he opened an exhibition, asking, “Ambassador, what is your opinion of your daughter’s relationship with Ueda Tatsuya from KAT-TUN?”

Monsieur Lantoucher simply answered with, “He is a good man, and he has proven that through these years. I’m looking forward to the wedding ceremony”.

The answer, quickly reported on the medias, erased all scandalous speculations. It gave unarguable prove that Ueda Tatsuya’s relationship with Marie-Therese had full approval of her father, despite their age difference.

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They finally could find a day when Mon. Lantoucher could spare several hours from his busy schedule before he retired as the Ambassador. The day fixed for their first family meeting, and Ueda’s father, mother, and sister will visit Marie in her house. Marie had mixed feelings. She looked forward to meeting Ueda’s parents, and yet, she also felt really anxious about it. She repeatedly asked Ueda about his parents, what are their favorite foods, what they like to talk about, and especially about Ueda’s mother. “What if she doesn’t like me?” Marie asked, for the seventh time that week.

“She will like you” Ueda answered simply. “Stop imagining disasters. Nothing bad will happen”

“How do you know? Maybe she will think I’m not good enough…..”

“You’re better than enough”

“But—“

“Take it easy. My mother is kind. Really. Like all of my friends mothers. And besides, if I like you, I think my parents will like you too” Ueda assured, patting Marie’s head. “It’s going to be alright”.

Ueda stopped his car in front of the porch, letting go of his seatbelts at the same time his father did, and got out of the car. Masami brought Rinko, her daughter, this time, and she got out of the car, reaching for Ueda’s hand, and continued clinging to him. It’s her habit. Ueda and his niece met really rare. Like once every year. But every time they met, Rinko had the tendency to follow him around everywhere. And he didn’t mind at all.

The butler greeted them all and took them to sitting room. “How do you do, Monsieur Lantoucher?” Ueda Hiroshi greeted, offering his hand.

“How do you do, Ueda-san. We finally met!” Monsiur Lantoucher shook his hand with Ueda’s father cordially, and after that, he greeted Ueda Yoshiko, Ueda’s mother.

Marie kissed Masami on the cheek and stood face to face with Ueda’s parents. Marie has been wanting to meet Ueda Yoshiko, and wondered how it would feel like to meet her for the first time. Ueda Yoshiko, clad in a dark green suit, and her long hair arranged in an elegant knot, stood there and took a serious look of her would be daughter in law. Marie found the appraising gaze intimidating and could only do one thing she could think of, she nervously smiled. At that, Yoshiko smiled back. She walked forward to Marie and offered her hands. Marie gladly received it.

“Well. Tatsuya has given me a very beautiful second daughter” she said softly.

Marie felt a lump in her throat. She had never a woman who she could call mother. The one with the title left her as an infant and never had any inclination to know what happened with her life. And now this woman, after one minute, claimed her as a beautiful daughter.

“Okaa-san” Marie said, the word felt foreign for her. It wasn’t in her language, and yet, the meaning is too deep. Whatever the language is, she had never called anyone ‘Mother’ before.

“Hai, Marie-chan” Yoshiko answered.

Marie let her hands go from Yoshiko and flung it around her necks, hugging her with all of her body and soul. Yoshiko hugged her back. From that moment on, Marie knew she would adore this woman for the rest of her life.

Ueda smiled. I knew everything would be alright.

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Their parents and Masami were still talking together after lunch, while Ueda, Marie-Therese, and Rinko sat at the backyards’ porch. “Are you and Onee-san will get married?” Rinko asked.

“Hai, we will, Rin-chan!”

“But I thought you want to marry me!” Rinko protested. “Don’t take my Ji-chan!” she yelled to Marie.

“I’m not taking him from you, he is still your Ji-chan after we marry” Marie said, smiling to the four year old.

“I can still call him when I want?”

“Sure” Marie answered.

“Well then, nothing will change! You can marry then, Ji-chan”

Ueda chuckled, “Thanks Rin-chan”

“You don’t like me, Rinko?” Marie asked.

“I want to hate you!” the little girl said fiercely, “But I can’t”

“Eh? You want to hate Onee-san but you can’t? Nan de?” Ueda asked.

“Because Onee-san looks like my favorite Barbie! And it’s not fair!” yelled Rinko, and with that, she stomped her feet and ran back to the house, sending Ueda breaking into a loud laugh.
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Today is February 23, 2009, and Kame’s 23rd birthday. Kame invited them all for dinner at his apartment. After all those hectic schedules, he decided it was better for him to live in an apartment, so as not to bother his family when he came home late. Besides, Kame felt it was time to live alone anyway. So he rented an apartment at the strategic place near Shibuya, so that he could walk to JE Building if he wants to.

The dinner was eaten, and Junno suggested them to play cards. Kame declined, since he was talking on the phone with someone. Ueda declined too, still eating his salad.

“Let’s play strip poker!” Jin suggested, which made Marie-Therese freaked out and said, “Wh—what?”

And Ueda hit Jin with the cushion, aimed for his face and succeeded.

“Awww, okay. We’ll play decent poker then” Jin said then.

Jin, Junno, Koki, Maru, and Marie played together, complete with noises, intimidating mockings, and the one who lost had his/her face smeared with talc.

“Tat-chan, you’re staring” Kame informed.

Ueda turned to Kame, confused. “I what?”

“You were staring at her”

“No, I didn’t”

“Oh yes, Tat-chan you did, with that dazed expression on your face”

“Did I?”

“You sure did” Kame said, leaning his head on his hand, looking amusedly at Ueda.

Against his will, Ueda’s eyes darted back to Marie.

“See?” Kame said.

“Urusai!”

“You’re different you know, Tat-chan, ever since you were together with Marie”

“Yeah?”

“Hai. You smile and laugh more” Kame stated.

Ueda was going to answer when the doorbell rang. And Kame got up to open it. Yuto, Yamada, and Chinen stood in front of the door, with Yuto stretching a big bag to Kame, “From all of us. O tanjoubi omedetto!”. The crowd exploded in a clapping, for indeed there were so many people on the corridor, forming a loud group. KisMyFeetII and ABC stood behind the youngest three, Daisuke from Question, even Yamapi poked his head from the end of line, smiling broadly and waving at him.

“Arigato. Dozou, come in” Kame said, opening the door wide. They all came in, and soon divided into two groups. One immediately sat down to play cards, “I think we should play something that could use three packs of cards” said Maru. At least four guys stretched out their hands to Marie, introducing themselves, and the other group of guys whined at the dining table, seeing there was nothing left there except the remaining of the dinner.

“Easy, easy, I’ll order more ne! Now help yourselves to the drinks” Kame urged, and start calling the restaurant.

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Marie just finished eating her dinner and walked upstairs in Ueda’s house. The second after she on the couch, Ueda’s cellphone rang. Marie read the screen, “Okaa-san calling”. She picked it up. “Allo, good evening”.

“Good evening. Hello, is this Marie?”

“Yes, Okaa-san. Ueda is in his room. I think he’s checking his e-mails. I’ll give him the cellphone” Marie said, walking to Ueda’s room and knocked the door.

“And how are you, Dear? It’s been several days since we talked on the phone” said Ueda’s mother.

“I’m fine, Okaa-san, thank you. And what about you?” Marie asked back, knocking Ueda’s door again. She heard no answer, and tried the handle. It was unlocked.

“Oh well, I’m fine too. Masami is here this week so I got to spend time with my grand daughter. I’m so happy. She’s really cute. And how is the wedding preparation?”

Marie looked inside and could see Ueda nowhere. “Everything is going on well. We finally finished discussing the decoration with the wedding organizer” she said, looking around the room, since this is the first time she entered Ueda’s room. “You will come three days before the wedding, right, Okaa-san?”

Ueda came out from the bathroom, wearing a pair of old jeans and a faded green t-shirt, drying his wet hair with a towel, and stopped dead rooted to the spot seeing Marie smiling to him there.

“Why are you here?” he asked in a sharp tone.

“Your mother” Marie whispered, pointing to his cellphone, while keep listening to the phone.

“I’ll be looking forward to it, Okaa-san….Yes, thank you, yes. This is Ueda…..Alright, see you soon, bye” she said, and gave the cellphone to Ueda.

“Moshi-moshi, Okaa-chan” Ueda said, staring at Marie’s back who was currently walking to his desk.

“I’ll e-mail the guest list to you. Hai”

Marie took a framed picture of Ueda, his parents, and Masami, and smiled looking at it.

“I promise you I won’t forget, I’ll send it tonight. Hai. Okay. Say hi to Otou-san, Mi-chan, and Rinko for me. Hai. Jaa ne”

Marie ran her hand to Ueda’s CD rack and took several of it, looking at the covers of the singers she doesn’t know.

“I think I’ve told you never to enter my room” Ueda said. Marie turned and was surprised that he was standing so close to her.

“Your mother was calling. Besides, I’m curious” she looked around again. “Your room is nice. I can see why you can stay for hours in here”

“I have a very good reason forbidding you to enter my room. You should stay away from here”

Marie laughed a little. “Why? It’s not like it’s messy!”

This is why!

Ueda reached for her and kissed her. Marie dropped the CD cases she was holding as Ueda ran his hands through her back and waist. There was a roughness and impatience she never felt in him. She break it, saying, “Ueda—wait,” but he silenced her with a deeper, more demanding kiss.

Ueda threw away his senses and pressed his body to hers, feeling he could hear his heart thumping so loud in his ears. “I want you, Marie. So badly” he murmured. He half pushed, half carried her to his bed. She fell on to it, and he held her down, imprisoning her with his weight. He let his hands and lips wandered, to the places he shouldn’t touch. He finally came to his senses again when he realized he wasn’t kissing her shirt anymore, but her skin.

With a superhuman effort, he sat up, feeling out of air like he ran around the blocks. Marie lied under him, her shirt was fully opened, her skirt was pulled high on her thigh, her face was pale and shocked. What he saw in her eyes made him asked,

“Are you afraid?”

Marie shook her head.

“I won’t say sorry. Because I’m not feeling it” he said, looking to her eyes. “Tell me…..do you think this is wrong?”

To Ueda’s surprise, Marie shook her head.

“Why?” he pursued.

Marie thought for several seconds, struggling to concentrate for an answer.

“If you continue to lay there staring at me helplessly, I swear I’ll—“

“It’s…it’s going to be you anyway. I love you, I’ll never say no to anything you ask from me. So now or later, it will be the same for me” Marie answered, blushing profusely under Ueda’s piercing gaze.

Ueda was silent. He finally sighed. “That. Is exactly the right answer to stop me” he said, and started buttoning her shirt. “I think I pulled this one off” he said, pointing to the missing third button. After that, he stepped aside from her body and pulled her too to a sitting position.

“You’re haunting me these days” Ueda grumbled.

“Haunting you?”

Ueda nodded.

“You’re getting…..more appealing, Marie”

Having no answer from Marie, Ueda gave up. He must make her understand the reason for his torment lately.

“Clueless as always. Marie-Therese, I need to tell you something” he gripped her shoulders, wanting to make sure that she focused on what he was going to say, “You know what, you’re so Goddamn sexy!”

Marie gave a shaky laugh and a “No, I’m not! You’re the only one who would say that!”

“The fact that you don’t realize it only added to it” Ueda explained. “All of this time I tried hard not to go all the way with you —don’t frown like that! I’ll make it plain. All of this time, I really want to make love to you. But I know I can’t do that. You’re eight years younger than me. I’m the one who supposed to think here. Besides, I really respect you. I’ve already waited three years. But it gets harder and harder these days. You’re getting more—um…beautiful. And my self control is getting thinner by the day”.

“Then…what should I do? Am I troubling you?”

“Help me. Stay out from this room for this last two months. And don’t ever leave my bed after you signed our wedding certificate” Ueda said as quick as he could.

“Maybe we shouldn’t meet until our wedding day, to make it easier for you” Marie suggested good heartedly.

“Are you trying to kill me?”

“No! It’s you who is being so out of ordinary and I don’t know how to react—“

Ueda reached out for her face and started to kiss her again, kissing all over her face and pushed her down on the bed once more. When he realized what he was doing, he jumped from his bed and backed away to the window, putting a distance between them as Marie sat up again, pulling her skirt back to the rightful length, under her knee.

“Out. Now!” Ueda said, feeling out of air, pointing the door to Marie. “Before I completely lose my mind and strip you! Leave this room!”

Marie laughed out loud.

“Have mercy, Marie. Please, Baby, go! Now!”

Still laughing, Marie said, “Okay, okay. I’ll leave. Though I feel like hugging you because you’re being so unusually adorable” Marie stood, feeling doubtful. Instead of walking out, she walked to Ueda.

Ueda had no trust in himself to say anything more as Marie walked step by step closer to him. She looked so tempting in her fully covered clothes, her usually tidy blonde hair which was messy then because he ran his hands there seconds ago, and her blue eyes that play tricks on his sanity without her having any idea about it at all. Ueda’s instincts screamed to grab her and pushed her to the floor. Help me God! Please, help me! Ueda pleaded inside.

“Thank you. For thinking so much about me. I can never find a better man” Marie said. She then kissed his lips lightly, flashed a last smile, and ran out of the room.

Ueda closed his eyes, relieved.

After five seconds, Ueda laid on his bed, feeling exhausted.
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Ueda felt awkward afterwards, and he couldn’t say anything to Marie as they walk together to the car. It was Marie who break the tension by asking “What is your schedule tomorrow?”. Ueda silently thanked her, and allowed himself to give a decent answer.

Ueda was driving his car to drop Marie home when he remembered several things he had to buy at the Konbini. So they went there together, going separately on different racks, Ueda to the toiletries, and Marie to the fruit racks. The Konbini was a big one, and it was rather crowded. Mostly the people at this hour bought ready to eat bentos for dinner. Ueda held his plastic shopping basket and two bottles of after shaves in his hands, pondering which one should he buy.

His eyes wandered around, passing a bunch of men on the bento heated racks and two girls in the canned drinks section to Marie, who was putting several bags of snacks to her shopping basket. Those girls seemed to look at Marie’s direction and whispered together. Ueda realized their intention too late. “No” he mumbled, and dropped his basket to the floor, running to Marie, desperately wanting those girls not to do it. But they did it anyway, and he couldn’t stop them. Those two girls each held two cans of cola in their hands, and threw it as hard as they could to Marie. Marie, who didn’t saw it coming, was hit on her face and body. She screamed and swayed, fell to the side, pushing a rack of vitamin C bottles with her, causing a loud crashing sound.

Ueda saw her hit by the cans, how she screamed in pain and surprise, how she swayed and fell. He saw those girls smiled viciously at her but their smiles faded away when he ran passed them, screaming, “MARIE!!!”

Marie lied in a wet pool from the bottles, rubbing the floor blindly, trying to sit up. Ueda caught her hand, kneeling beside her and made her sat up. “Are you alright?” he asked.

“I’m—“

Ueda let go of her hand in fear because it smeared his own hand with red, dropping red marks to the mess and making it turned from yellow to reddening liquid. Marie was bleeding. “No! Oh God! No!” Ueda muttered in panic, his head a chaos. Marie looked down at her bleeding hand. The glass from the bottles she fell into scratched her hand, leaving a line of gushing red blood in her left hand, starting from her elbow to the middle of her arm.

Ueda looked around.

Those two girls who did this exclaimed, “Gomen, Ueda, we were…”

With the look in Ueda’s face, pure panic and worry, they clamped their mouth shut. People started to make a circle around them, and a middle aged man came forward, “I’m the owner of this Konbini. Don’t worry about anything, you better bring her to a hospital”

“Hai. Sumimasen, I’ll come back and pay for the damage later”

With that, he carried Marie and ran holding her to the door, hearing faintly the shop owner yelled to those girls. But he cares nothing about them right now, he could only think about Marie, with her blood dripping all over the way. Ueda put her on the seat and put the seatbelts around her, ran around the car, got in, started the car, and raced to the nearest hospital, while Marie tried to clean her bleeding hand with tissues. “Ow…this hurts” Marie said, unable to keep her tears. Ueda sped up his car.
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Ueda was allowed to be there as long as he didn’t make a sound. He stood there, motionless, helpless, while the doctor cleaned Marie’s wound, picking small shards of glass from it, cleaned it with alcohol, and stitched it close. Marie was injected with a local anaesthetize in her arm, so she didn’t feel the pain when she was stitched.

After that, the doctor and nurse left, leaving them alone, parted with a curtain from the other patients in the Emergency Room. Ueda couldn’t approach the bed and looked at Marie. At her swollen arm, at the bruises on her face, and her dress smeared with her own blood.

“It’s not your fault” Marie said softly.

Ueda approached her. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry” he said, looking down.

With her left hand, Marie reached Ueda’s face and he looked at her. And his eyes were filled with tears of remorse, pain, and humiliation. “I’m sorry, Marie…Forgive me…You were hurt because of me…”

“It’s okay, Ueda. I’m fine. I will feel nothing after a few days” Marie said, trying to make Ueda to feel better.

“Those girls are my—“

“I know. I stole you from them, didn’t I?”

“You don’t deserve to be treated like this” Ueda said, holding and looking at her bandaged arm. And he couldn’t help it. The girl he loves with all of his heart, the girl who he regarded as the most precious, the girl he wanted to protect from any pain, was hurt because of him. Bitter tears fell from Ueda’s eyes. He stretched his hands to Marie’s face, crying for the face he always caress that now had big swelling bruises on the forehead and right cheek. “Forgive me…..”.
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Monsieur Lantoucher screamed “CHERIE!!! What happened?” and glared to Ueda. Ueda explained that Marie became like that because of his “fans”. Looking at Monsieur Lantoucher’s enraged face, Ueda seriously thought that finally this time, Monsieur Lantoucher would punch him hard on his face. He was readying himself, but Monsieur Lantoucher said nothing and led Marie to her room.

Ueda later came to the Konbini, paying for the damage that night. The owner gave him a book, “Here. I’ve written the names of those girls. Also their addresses and phone numbers. Do you want to sue them and report to the police?”

Ueda received the book and look at the two names. He meditated and considered. But in the end he said, “No, I won’t report them to the police. I’ll leave it as it is”.
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There are two choices. Back to hiding, and not going out with Marie in public to avoid anybody hurting her again. Or go all the way once and for all.

This is Ueda Tatsuya we’re talking about.

Two days after the incident, newspapers, magazines, and tabloids flooded readers with clear pictures of Ueda walking leisurely at Ginza, holding his fiance’s bandaged arm, getting in Cartier and bought a pair of wedding rings. He was smiling, laughing, whispered to her ear, and even held her waist while they were walking.

For all the world to see.

“Revenge is sweet ne?” Kame had asked Ueda that morning, holding FRIDAY.

“Hell yeah” Ueda answered satisfactorily.

“Is Marie alright?” asked Junno.

“Hai. The wound is painful, but she will be alright soon”

“I hate those girls! When we talk about fans jealousy to girlfriends, I never even think that they could actually hit people with cans!” Jin said angrily.

“They are not fans” Koki said. “At least not real fans. Real fans are those thousands of girls who sent you a congratulation note for your engagement”

“That’s what I think too” Ueda said gravely.

Hundreds of fans were furious with the anonymous girls who assaulted Marie. One blogger said : “I know the news that Ueda is getting married is shocking for everyone. I admit I was shock too and I feel devastated for a day after I first heard that. But nobody should ever hurt his fiancé like that. I think Ueda would feel really sad about that. This is not the time to leash our fury at him! This is the time to show him that we really care about him and give him support!”.

In the end of the week, Ueda then typed on KAT-TUN J-web the following;

“Thank you so much for all of you who supported me and send letters and e-mails. I really appreciate it. My wedding will be on April 26, 2009. Pray and give me your blessing that day, and I will be forever grateful”.
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Author’s Note :

I was greatly inspired by a song when I wrote this chapter. It was “Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (Personal Angel)” by TANK. It’s a beautiful song. This is the translation :

Personal Angel

I won’t blame you
For what you’ve hide from me
An angel amidst humans should hide their wings
People are silly and rude
While you’re delicate and kind hearted

How can I let you get hurt because of me?

Tiny, little palms
Yet with great warmth
You could comfort my restless nights
The dreams I won’t dare to dream
Passes through your eyes
It’s then that I realized it’s actually in front of me

Chorus :
No one can steal you away from my side
You’re my personal angel
Only I can have
No one can replace you in my heart
I have one personal angel
I don’t need other wishes

Tiny, little palms
Yet with great strength
I’ll definitely be able to fly like you
The places you want to go are my directions
With my protection, your smile will always be bright

***Back to Chorus***

If you had not appeared
I would definitely still be sound asleep
Hopelessly thinking
That life is full of darkness

***Back to Chorus***

Ueda's Tale Chapter 26

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 03:32:11 GMT

Chapter 26 : Bliss After Crisis

Summary : Ueda held a press conference, and it invites various reaction. He also had his first real date with Marie-Therese.

Word Count : 4,750

Marie was surprised when her maid came announcing that Ueda Masami wanted to meet her. And there she was, standing on the door, smiling at her.

“Hi, Marie. I thought you might want a company to watch the press conference on TV”

Marie gave a relieved sigh, “Merci. Yes, I prefer to watch with you rather than alone. Merci for coming tonight” she said, signaling Masami to sit at the couch with her.

“You’re welcome” Masami said.
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The room was set up, the press was invited and they are already sitting on the arranged chairs. They were around 200, filling the room with hushed noises and cameras. A big table was placed in the center front, covered with a white tablecloth. On the table was placed six mics and six tag names.

In the adjoining room, KAT-TUN were standing near the door, since it’s almost 20.00, the time for the press conference.

“Can’t we just give a written statement?” asked Ueda nervously.

Junno hit Ueda’s shoulder softly. “Relax, Tat-chan! It will be okay!”

“It will be over before you realize it” Kame assured.

“What if you who make the statement? You’ll talk better than me, anyway” Ueda said to Kame, with a pleading look.

Jin came and massaged Ueda’s shoulder. “It’ll be okay, Son. Don’t you worry! Papa is here!”

That resulted in Koki giving Jin a slap in the head.

A crew with an earphone and a little mic came, “KAT-TUN-san, it’s time!”

“Hai, arigato” Maru said, and together they walk to the conference room.

They all entered the room and were attacked by the flashes of cameras. It was so full of white lights they have to walk blindly to the seats. They were told about the seats arrangement and came in according to the usual KAT-TUN formation, with Kame at the far left, and Maru at the far right.

Maru acted as the MC that night, and started with,

“Minna-san, good evening. Tonight we, KAT-TUN is here to accompany our U, Ueda Tatsuya to make an announcement. Ueda, dozou”.

Ueda gripped the portable mic and it caused a killing noise.

“Sumimasen” he nervously let go of his grip. “Ano—erm—“cameras flashed, cameras focused, “actually, I’m very sorry for making everyone worried. For that, I apologize. Sumimasen deshita” he cleared his throat and tried not to squint from the blinding lights.

“I had to be absent for a month because I was really sick. I had an acute faringitis. Actually it was an infection. I can’t make a voice and that’s why I was ordered to rest by the doctor”

“Were you hospitalized?” a woman asked.

“Hai. For a week” answered Ueda.

“Where was it? And why keeping it a secret?”

“It was severe, right?” Maru asked to Ueda, smoothly avoided Ueda having to answer the last question. “And how long did you have to eat Okayu?”

“I’m still eating Okayu, now” Ueda said, laughing a little. KAT-TN laughed too.

“From now on, I’ll continue to work again.

The second one is, we’ll have a new dorama. It is Death Note. I’m going to play L, and Kamenashi will be Light Yagami”

“Hai, yoroshiku onegaishimasu!” Kame said, bowing.

Louder noises, until one man’s voice was more comprehensible, asking, “For which TV channel, Ueda-san?”

“For NTV, starting from March 24”

“This is your very first leading role, ne? How are you feeling about it?” Maru asked.

“Ano…very nervous!”

“Ganbatte ne!” Junno exclaimed, while Koki folded his fists, as a signal of support.

“Hai, arigato. And the third announcement from me is, I’m going to get married”

For two seconds silence hung in the air. And then chaos happened. Cameras flashed non-stop instead of once every several minutes, and every interviewers who are not holding the camera tried to beat each others by shouting questions.

“With who?”

“When will it be held?”

“Does your company approved?”

“How will your career be?”

“Everybody, cool down, please. Ueda will explain it!” Koki said to the crowd.

“I’m going to get married, next April. I haven’t fix the date. My fiancé is not from the entertainment world. And yes, Johnny’s Entertainment Management fully approved my decision”

“What is her name?” several people asked.

But Ueda didn’t answer. Instead, he looked to Maru.

“Hai” Maru understood, “Well, minna-san, that is all. Thank you for coming tonight and for supporting Ueda and KAT-TUN” Maru said, closing the press conference, and bowed.

Kame, Jin, Junno, Koki, and Ueda also bowed. They then left the room, despite the crowd kept screaming questions regarding Ueda’s plan to get married.

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His first active day will be filled with a concept meeting about KAT-TUN new CM, introduction meeting with the cast, crews, and director of Death Note Dorama, and last but not least, his first intensive acting tutorial. Ueda was mentally reciting his schedule that day, as he was passing the lobby of JE building. He felt mostly disturbed by the fact that he had to meet new people for the dorama, and has to spend time with them for the next three months. Kame said that though the beginning might be awkward, people working in one dorama would get really close eventually. “Yeah, easy for you to say that!” Ueda thought.

And his acting tutorial rather freaked him out too. As a junior when he just entered the company, there were several acting classes everybody must attend to. He was always getting scolded by the mentors, for spelling the words inexpressively, for not paying his full attention and repeatedly yawning during the class, or just speaking with the wrong intonations. And now, all those four teachers will give him two weeks intensive training. Those people who had all screamed at him because his face was, instead of forming an expression of sorrow or happiness, was as straight as a wooden board. But then again, Kame promised he’ll drop in everyday and make sure that he’s still alive, instead of being murdered by the mentors.

Kanjani 8 came from the opposite way, seeming ready for a schedule outside the office, in full formation, talking as loud as can possibly be. Yokoyama waved to him and Ueda waved back, automatically pretending that the guy beside Yokoyama wasn’t there. They passed each others and Ueda walked to the elevators. But he suddenly remembered and turned back.

“Nishikido” he called flatly, his voice loud between the morning noises of greetings in the lobby.

The guy that Ueda called stopped and turned back, facing him. “Now what?” he asked challengingly.

“I thought you were going to report me?” Ueda asked, looking at Ryo behind his sun glasses, not bothering to put it off.

“What’s the matter?” Subaru asked to Ryo, with the rest of Kanjani 8 surrounding Ryo.

“I hit your face until you bleed, and you said you wanted to report me to your manager, and assured that I will be fired” Ueda described, while people who walked there starting to stop and stare at them.

“I wanted to” Ryo answered.

“Then why didn’t you?”

“Because your friend asked me not to. And he asked nicely”

Ueda frowned, feeling confused.

“And I like your friend. He even bowed to me and said, ‘Please’. Just happened to be the right password”

“Who? Jin?”

“No”, Ryo said, folding his arms, looking straight to Ueda unsmilingly, “It was Taguchi”

Ueda stood motionless in shock.

“I’d love to chat around with you, Pal, but I’m busy” Ryo said, pointing his watch with his knuckles, “and the clock is ticking”.

Ueda said nothing, already buried in his thoughts. Junno. Bowing to this devil?

Ryo made a saluting move, “I congratulate your best laid plan, Ueda. You ended up winning a leading role. I wish I can be in the same level in cunning skills” with that smirk, he turned around and left with his friends, explaining his version of the story to them.

When he entered KAT-TUN office, Junno greeted him, handing him a thick bundle of papers. “Here, your dorama script”

“Arigato, Junno”

“Okay” Junno smiled and turned back.

Ueda caught his wrist, “No, Junno, I mean it. Arigato gozaimasu. I’m sorry for troubling you”

Junno creased his forehead, “I only give your script, Tat-chan”

“I mean about bowing to Nishikido and asking him not to report me”

Comprehension rise on Junno’s face. “Oh that” Junno said and waved his hand, brushing the matter off, “It’s nothing. It’s the least I can do”

They stood smiling to each other when Koki came in, faced with the scene. “Okay…Am I interrupting a rabu-rabu moment here?” he teased, looking like ready to be entertained.

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The following is the copied transcript of a conversation between Ueda Tatsuya’s fans in a public blog :

Ueda_lover said : I can’t believe that Ueda is going to get married! I can’t believe he just said that in a national press conference!

Lady_tatsuya said: ***died***
I cried. I seriously did. I can’t accept the fact that Ueda will marry somebody. Why should he marry now?

Eileen258 said : I’m glad Ueda is back! It’s worrying to hear he had a severe faringitis! And finally, finally he will play a dorama!

Ueda_lover said : He’s been hiding the fact that he’s dating someone all along!

Lady_Tatsuya said : I feel betrayed…….

Ueda_lover said : And who the hell is she? I hate her already!

Lady_Tatsuya said : Me too. I hate her! Whoever she is! She stole my Ueda!

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Various reactions follows Ueda’s press conference. The newspaper, tabloids, and magazines were full of it by the next morning. Forums and blogs got longer for pages and pages commenting on the occasion. Ueda’s mysterious disappearance now answered, fans exclaimed to be thankful and the press commented on how hard JE members had to work for the company. The dorama was well talked of too. Since this is going to be Ueda’s first dorama, and as a leading role too, of the beloved L character. Some doubt that the dorama will be worth seeing, some can’t wait to see him acting as the eccentric detective.

But of course, the biggest reaction that drowned all other comments is about Ueda’s announcement. The fact that a JE member, a member of KAT-TUN, the group that is on the top of its fame, and him being only 26, announced that he is engaged and will be married soon, is so startling and unexpected. For all of his career, Ueda had almost never entered the tabloids for scandals, making his fans could only guess about his personal life. And now he suddenly announced his engagement and wedding plan.

A lot of fans claimed that they are broken hearted. Some even said that they will stop being Ueda’s fan, the other already calling bad names of his fiancé and swore of eternal hatred. Conspiracy theory lovers speculate away, and some got nearest to the truth, writing in her blog :

“Could it be that Ueda Tatsuya didn’t actually have a severe Faringitis and was actually punished because of his relationship with that girl?”

But there is one thing that came as the biggest surprise for KAT-TUN. After three days, their manager gave Ueda four sacks of letters. “These are letters from your fans, congratulating you for you coming wedding”. Ueda was rendered speechless, overpowered by a feeling of gratitude. There are also thousands of e-mails in our website, also congratulating you”

“A—arigato…” Ueda stammered.

Koki patted his shoulder.

“You have amazing fans!” Junno exclaimed, peeking to one of the sacks, full of letters and gifts.

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“We don’t have to do this, Ueda! Really, you don’t have to do this!” Marie pleaded anxiously.

“Come on, we already talked about this. You were happy for a minute, and then go nervous in another minute”

Marie gripped her seatbelt tightly, like it could save her from what she is dreading.

“But what if something bad happen? What if this is wrong? What if this will be bad for you? What if—“

Ueda clamped her mouth with his palm to stop her overflowing pessimism.

“We’re not going to kill somebody, Marie. We’re just going for a decent date. Come on, nothing bad will happen to you”

“Mff....” Marie protested for her right to talk.

Ueda let his hand off her mouth.

“I’m not worried about myself!” Marie snapped.

“Nothing bad will happen to me too.” Ueda assured.

Marie waved her hands to fan her face, one of her habits when she is really worried.

“Kawaii…” Ueda muttered under his breath, chuckling.

“It’s not the appropriate respond, you know. This is serious!”

Ueda couldn’t help smiling, and he got out of the car, circling it and opened Marie’s door. “Let’s go”

“Ueda! You’re talking to me! Don’t do that!” Marie said, in a panic, and she grabbed a magazine from the dashboard and hid her face with it.

Despite the laugh that threatened to explode, Ueda felt a little sorry for Marie. So much for a relationship, huh? Marie is just too used to hide their relationship, too used to make it a secret to anyone, even to her best friends, so the idea to actually date in a public place is overwhelming her. She is afraid of what this change may bring.

Ueda kneeled and pulled the magazine from her face.

“All of this hiding will stop today” he said.

“But people will see us!” Marie reasoned.

“That’s the idea, Marie. I’m going to show you off in public. Come on, leave this car. We’re going to have a good time”

Black eyes met blue, and Marie sighed. “I can’t stop thinking that this will bring you trouble”

“This might be one of the best days in my life. So come on,” Ueda said, offering his hand, “didn’t you say you want to walk together with me in the crowd holding my hand? We’ll do it now”

Marie took a deep breath and let it out again, motivating herself and blocking all those negative thoughts. She held Ueda’s hand and stepped out of his car to the wide parking lot of Cosmo Amusement Park in Yokohama.

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Now that he had his press conference and announced that he is engaged to Marie-Therese, there is no more reason to hide from the press. Therefore, Ueda decided that this is the time to fulfill what Marie had been deprived of, a normal date where they could stand side by side in public without having to worry about their pictures being taken by the paparazzi or anyone who has a camera. At least if somebody does take a picture, it won’t be a problem anymore, because Johnny Kitagawa himself gave his consent for their relationship. There is nothing to conceal anymore.

They both walked hand in hand in the wide, crowded park. They just walked together and felt content by doing it, like they were doing some sacred procession. Finally they stood in the middle of the park, looking around.

“I think I heard a camera snapped” Marie whispered.

“Just pretend you didn’t hear it” Ueda suggested.

“How about if you wear your sunglasses?”

“Nope. I left it in the car to avoid using it.

“We’re in an amusement park, Marie! Stop looking like that! Come on, where do you want to go?”

Instead of answering, Marie looked around and saw at least four girls are looking at them. They were whispering to their friends and targeting their cellphone cameras on Ueda and her.

Ueda stepped closer, “If you continue like this, I’m going to grab you and start kissing your neck here, in front of all of these people” he threatened.

Marie glared at Ueda, “You wouldn’t dare!”

“I would, trust me” and he really did lowered his head in the direction of her neck.

“FINE!” Marie said loudly. “Let’s go!” she marched quickly alone. Ueda grinned, then ran to her, but she stopped abruptly, looking to her left.

“Look!” Marie pointed, beaming widely, all worries forgotten, “A haunted house! We really must go there!”

And so they went there. The background music was scary, the dolls were hideous and bleeding, digital ghosts with big hollow eyes and transparent wander around, walking through walls and shocked them every 30 seconds, even came from the floors they were standing. Marie screamed out loud every time she was terrified, which was almost all of the time, and Ueda winced a lot because she was gripping his wrist so hard he was sure it will leave a red mark. A headless lady, came from the end of the corridor they were passing, and looked convincingly real, caused Marie to jump back, hit Ueda and they both fell on the floor with Marie on top, and at that precise moment a giant, green, full of phlegm snake came so suddenly from a trap door, with his big mouth opened showing sharp teeth. “HUWAAAAA!” they both screamed and ran to the end of the corridor, pushing the headless lady aside.

They came out of the haunted house feeling breathless. “That was one hell of a haunted house!” Ueda commented.

“My heart is beating really fast! It was super scary!”

They then went to a fortune teller and her tarot card plus a big, shiny crystal ball. It kept shining every time she said “Let me see…”.

Marie came out of the wooden caravan really happy, almost dancing around Ueda.

“She’s really smart!”

“No she’s not! She just told you everything you want to hear!”

“She told me I already met the love of my love and that I will be happy with him for the rest of our lives!”

“Well of course she would say that, you came with me!”

“Oh stop it! Don’t ruin my feeling!” Marie warned.

After that, they ride the merry go round, twice. Ueda was feeling awkward, but he did that anyway. And then they went to the food section, full of food stalls selling everything from manju to eclairs, onigiri to burgers. They were sitting at one of the wooden table, waiting for Ueda’s Ie Kei ramen (thick, straight noodles served in soy pork broth) and Marie’s sandwhich when Marie saw a stall that sold cotton candy.

“I have an idea!” she exclaimed. She then went there and bought two big cotton candies, and sat back in front of Ueda.

“Let’s have an eating competition! Who finished first wins! The loser must do anything the winner’s wish” Marie said.

“But it’s so big!” Ueda protested, eyeing his cotton candy skeptically.

“Coward. You think you will lose!” Marie accused.

Ueda’s eyes turned to slits.

“You will regret saying that! Let’s do it!”

“Okay, one, two, three, eat it up!”

They raced to eat as much as they could, not caring that at least ten people were looking at them, laughing as they obviously knew what they were doing. Ueda ravenously put as much as he could to his mouth, and Marie took a handful to her mouth.

“I win!” Marie yelled triumphantly, putting up her candy stick.

Ueda sighed, in one more bite, he would have been the winner. His cotton candy was left only a ten centimeter circle on his candy stick.

“But really, let’s not waste this precious moment!” Marie reminded, and hopped to Ueda’s side, taking their pictures together with sticky pink cotton candies all over their cheeks. After that, Marie smilingly wiped Ueda’s mess on his face with tissue. After that, she cleaned her face.

“What do you want me to do?” Ueda asked.

“You will—wait—am I clean?” Marie asked, after she sat back in front of him.

“You miss a speck” Ueda said, stretching his hand to take it from Marie’s left cheek.

“Merci. You, you have a show in Shounen Club Premium next week, right?”

“Hai…” Ueda said, dreading what will come next.

“You will sing, face the camera, and smile as long as the song goes”

He knew it will be something like that.

“But it’s a rock song!” Ueda protested.

“I don’t care. Face the camera and smile. Blink too, if you can”

Ueda was about to put some sense to the impossible request when their orders came, and started to eat grumblingly, while Marie cheerfully thanked the waiter, who was a boy and flushed because of her smile.
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They watched a movie at the big Cineplex, which Marie chose. A famous Hollywood box office romance. It was sweet, funny, and heart warming. But like most American Movie, in one scene the leading roles finally started to kiss passionately in an intense urgency and opened each other clothes. When the actress started to opened the actor’s jeans belt, Ueda covered Marie’s eyes with his hand. Marie brushed his hand off, but Ueda persisted, holding both of her hands with his other hand.

“You know what, I really, truly hate this habit of yours!” Marie whispered angrily, turning to Ueda.

“Whatever. If you go with me, you won’t see any sex scene”

“I’m not a child anymore! I’ll graduate from high school in two weeks!”

“I don’t care how old are you, I don’t want you to watch this!” Ueda said, whispering too.

“I’ll watch this movie again! By myself!”

“Go ahead, just don’t tell me if you actually do. And besides, trust me” Ueda said in her ear, “some things are better if you experience yourself. You will know this anyway after we get married. So please, until then, don’t see any naked guys with these eyes of yours”

Marie shivered by their closeness but pinched Ueda’s hand as hard as she could. Ueda bit his lower lip to prevent himself saying anything loud because of the stinging pain. Feeling defeated, Marie leaned in her chair, with Ueda’s hand on her eyes, and hugging his other arm.

He could cover her eyes, but he couldn’t stop her from listening, as the leading roles moaned, gasped, and breathed out loud.

After two minutes and it wasn’t done yet, Marie whispered impatiently, “It’s so long!”

“People could do that for a whole night long, you know”

“No way! But it must be tiresome!”

Ueda chuckled, “No…hmm, not if you really like each other, I guess, you won’t think about feeling tired”

“You sound like you have been out experimenting!”

“It’s just something that I know of” Ueda said, after that, the actress gave a shrill suppressed scream, and Marie gripped Ueda’s hand.

“What’s happening, is she hurt?” she asked.

Ueda couldn’t help laughing, but then covered it with a cough, and managed to say, “Erm—no. She wasn’t um—hurt. She is absolutely feeling alright”.

“Really?”

“Yeah”

The scene changed and Ueda let go of his hand from Marie’s eyes, smiling to himself in the dark.
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It was seven o’clock when they got out from the Cineplex, and they walked straight to their main goal that day. Several days ago, Ueda asked, “Do you have any place you want to go for a date?”. They were driving in the car after buying dinner in a drive thru, and Marie pointed somewhere without hesitation.

“There! I’ve been wanting to try that with you for ages! Let’s try it!”

Ueda looked at it, and agreed that it was really a good place to be in their first date.

And now they were standing underneath it, waiting in line to buy tickets.

It was the Cosmoclock 21, a gigantic ferris wheel that was the famous landmark of Yokohama. Standing 105 meters tall from the ground, it was adorned with several colors of neons, shining bright and could be seen from miles around. It has a big digital clock on the middle of it, making it the biggest clock in the world. It has always been the main attraction of Cosmo Amusement Park.

They finally got their tickets, and got in one of the cars. It proceeded slowly, stopping every several seconds, letting other passengers in. As they climb higher, their view got broaden. Soon, Yokohama lay under them, showing a vast land full of bright lights, shining from every corners of the city. White, yellow, red, blue, and green. Sparkling and blinking, like communicating with each others. As they climb even higher, the lamps from the cars below turned to flashes of light that pass around the city in various circles.

“Wow……” Marie breathed in awe, eagerly savoring the view and glued her face to the window, “It’s really beautiful”.

“Hai. Such an amazing view ne” Ueda approved, looking below.

“The sky is brilliant too” Marie said, looking above. It’s a cloudless night, and the stars were shining too. At one point, the sky and the field of lights below seemed to blur and joined.

With a swift move, Ueda stood and sat beside Marie. Their car swayed a little, but stopped soon.

“You’re unbalancing the car” Marie warned.

He hugged her back, circling is hands on her waist and pulled her close, making her lean on his chest.

“I should’ve proposed to you here” Ueda said, with a little trace of regret in his voice.

“Yeah. Instead of casually putting the ring on my lunch plate” Marie agreed.

Ueda didn’t answer back, so Marie looked up at his face, “Hey” she patted his cheek, “You proposed, that’s what matters”.

Ueda kissed Marie’s shoulder.

Suddenly, the fact that Ueda was hugging her and they were there, together, watching this beautiful scene made Marie’s eyes wet with tears.

“I really, really love you, you know” Marie said, her voice shook with every word. “This seems like the best time to say it” she explained, laughing.

“I love you too” Ueda said, tightening his hug.

Marie stiffened and sighed contentedly.

“The fact that you can say it that easily proves how much we’ve gone”

Ueda smiled, though Marie couldn’t see. “As this is seems to be a good time, I want to confess something”

“What is it?”

“Sometimes…I hate myself for thinking about you too much” Ueda said. He put his chin on Marie’s shoulder and took a deep breath.

“When I woke up in the morning, I think about you and then checked whether you e-mailed me or not. Though this sounds weird from my mouth, but you really are the last thing on my mind before I sleep. When I eat, I’ll think of will you like what I eat or not. When I sing, it became a song about you however the song is. I think of what I want to say to you when I don’t phone you. When I see another girl, I imagine how you would look if you wear her clothes. One night, when I was walking in Shibuya, a girl passed, smelling like your perfume, and I turned around and tried to follow her, but she disappeared in the crowd. It was lucky that you called then, saying good night and you want to go to sleep, or else I would be walking up and down Shibuya for an hour, searching for you” Ueda shook his head and laughed to himself, “You’re making a fool out of me”.

Marie touched Ueda’s hands on her waist, “Funny. I always thought it is just the other way around. That I’m the only one who thinks about you all the time, day and night. You have your share too…that’s relieving!”

“Turn around, let me kiss you”

“What?! This is transparent glass windows, for God’s sake!” Marie said, tapping the window beside them, “people will see us!”

“They won’t. If they do, so what? Besides, every couple that got in this ferris wheel kiss each other when the car reached the highest point, it’s one of the reasons why this ferris wheel is so famous!”

Marie turned and faced Ueda. “It’s crazy!”

“No it’s not. You know what, there’s a legend of this ferris wheel. If you kiss your lover when the car reaches the highest point, your relationship will last forever. I generally don’t believe in myths, but don’t you think it’s risky not to do that?”

Marie was silent, trying to think of an answer. At that time, the car reached the highest point and Ueda kissed Marie. Marie meant to pushed Ueda away, in the five seconds where she still could use her sense—it’s always like that when Ueda kissed her—but that myth…and she really want their relationship to last forever….And then the stars seemed to merged into one and exploded in a firecracker when Ueda started to grace her mouth with his tongue, and Marie forgot where they were, who she was, and what she was thinking before this kiss. The last thing she remembered was her hands that went up and circled Ueda’s neck.

Ueda only meant to kiss her for several seconds, but instead, he kissed her until she shuddered, until she instinctively moved her body closer to his like she was begging for more, until her blue eyes loose their focus and she looked like she was losing her consciousness. What a pretty scene. Better than the surroundings now. What would you say Marie, if I tell you that there is no myth and I just made it up to be able to kiss you until you melt like this?

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Author’s Note : And the prefect soundtrack for their date is “Kiss Me” from Sixpence None The Richer. Especially the lines :

Kiss me, beneath the milky twilight
Lead me, out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon sparkling
So kiss me…..

Kame Throws a Look and We Faint

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 05:15:05 GMT

My picspam. Of Mr. Kamenashi. Oh dear.

Kame in black is Ooooh.........

He enjoys showing his skin does he?

Kame + expensive cars+ suits = matched! I can imagine him being a millionaire. Or maybe he already is. Good for you! By the way that pigeon looking one is really beautiful. Really super beautiful.

Nice pose with all those jackets. Second pic define "bedroom eyes". And third pic just made me go wild.

Kame in white. Second pic. It define his lips color more. Third pic : drooling drooling

Second pic : Kawaiiiiiiiiii! First pic. Oh come on, Yamapi go all naked with a foreign girl and now all I get from you is just touching shoulder? It's unfair! Can't you at least hug her?

He loves hats. Really. Like the current accessory of his life. I like the last two.

Lips. He was so sexy in Lips. Those eyeliners, rubbing the mic like it was a girl, and all those lip licking.

Hah......I'm tired.....he's too kawaii

Kame. Wet. Splendid.

Akame Friendship

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 04:05:27 GMT

It's the old topic that you may be bored of, but I've been avoiding to write this for so long.

I suddenly feel sad. Seriously. About Kame and Jin or Akame. It’s the fact that they look not as close as they used to be. I, for one, still believe that they are friends. But these endless rumors that they have stopped being friends, and became enemies, and now nothing less than strangers to each other is worrying me.

Kame and Jin were best friends. My question is, are they still best friends now?

They were really, really close before 2005. We still watched them standing side by side and dancing during Kaizokuban. And then Jin played Anego, and Kame played Nobuta. Kame got really famous and in a way, debut first with Shuji to Akira. I think it was at these times that the rumor of Kame and Jin stopped being close friends started. There were rumors saying that it was Jin who was planned to play in Nobuta, since Yamapi is Jin’s close friends and their chemistry is very good. And I think it is known that Yamapi, as a kid, hated Kame. But then the role was given to Kame, and Kame and Pi carried on really well and even became closer as a friend too. Sappuri was rumored to be for Jin too. Because Kame was given Yuuki and Tatta, I think it was just make sense if Jin was to play Sappuri. I read somewhere that the Docomo cellphone Kame used in Sappuri was Jin’s in the CM.

But then in KAT-TUN Debut Concert, when the Yarakashis was mocking Kame, Jin defended him. And then we don’t see any interaction of Kame and Jin in the making of Real Face and Signal. And then the shock of Jin’s hiatus happened. Kame didn’t appear in the press conference before Jin left and only sent a letter.

The reason of Jin’s hiatus was, Jin said himself, is because he wanted to go abroad to learn language. But at the press conference, he looked so pale and like someone who was ready to cry. He didn’t look like someone who was ready to embrace freedom and leave his job. Ah. I still don’t believe that it was Jin’s own will. I think he was sent there because JE ordered him to go. I think it’s some kind of punishment. Why would he go when KAT-TUN just recorded a single? Why would he go in the year of KAT-TUN’s debut?

As of Jin’s hiatus reason, you may disagree with me.

But let us remember about Kame that time. Do you remember the first episodes of Tatta Hitotsu no Koi? It was shot like a month before Jin’s hiatus. Kame was really, really thin. I think he was the one who felt the blow of Jin’s leaving as most severe.

Back at 2005. Kame got a lot of attention. I think it was Jin who used to be the center of attention in KAT-TUN. Could it be that Jin envied Kame’s sudden rise of fame?

Could you wake up one morning and suddenly say in your heart : “He’s not my friend anymore”?

Is it because Jin’s shooting Anego and Kame busy with Nobuta that tore them apart? Did they stop being best friends because they didn’t have enough time to spend together?

Could you not see your friend for several weeks and then when you see him again, you don’t see him as a friend anymore but as a stranger? Could it be possible? Answer me!

It was said that Kame was too selfish and Jin got tired with it. Some said the other way around. Kame was tired of Jin who always did things in his own way and didn’t care for others opinion.

Some said that Jin was tired because Kame was too perfectionist, because Kame forced everyone to train so much and got too obsessed in perfect performances and he yelled at Jin every time Jin made a mistake.

There was another stupid rumor. That they were fighting over a girl. But I don’t believe it.

Is childhood friends is something you throw away when you’ve grown up?

And now, I have to admit the truth. Kame is really close with Koki. They played Dream Boys together three times, Tatta Hitotsu no Koi, and they talk to each other a lot. I think we can see how close they were in LIPS making and many other occasions. While Jin spend his time with Yamapi, Ryo, and Shirota Yuu when he has his day off.

I really, really want to see pictures of Kame and Jin hanging out together again.

And then there was Sendai. Kame was holding Jin most of the time, like he was so happy Jin came back and would never let his friend go again. Kame still cares for Jin, I think.

In KAT-TUN, all the six of them are close. It’s clear in how comfortable they are when they are together. It looks like six friends instead of just six co-workers. Could it be, that because all of them are getting closer, Kame and Jin’s friendship falls apart?

Oh well. This is a sad thought.

We heard that Jin and Kame were eating together several months ago. And Jin gave Kame his favorite perfume after he came home from Hawaii. I hope this is true.

Or maybe they are still close but they don’t show it in front of the camera. Maybe they got tired of all the comments and people comparing them with one another. At least that’s what I’m hoping.

We might never know what happened between them in 2005. I’m dying to know why.

I hope they are still best friends. Maybe, like any other friends, they had their times of disagreements and fights. But they deal with it and now they’re doing fine.

I just want a proof that they are still best friends. Do something in front of the camera Kame, Jin! Hug each other or something!

50 Things About Me

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 03:56:30 GMT

Finished writing this on April. And posting it now. I had to think really hard! Though it's about : me.

Saturday, April 12 2008

Hello!

God! This new chapters of Ueda’s Tale is surprisingly hard to write. Usually the idea came so easy to my head. Why this time it’s so hard? I never predicted that this part will be hard to write. The next three chapters main ideas are about 1) Ueda asked Marie’s father permission to get married, 2) Ueda asked Johnny Kitagawa’s permission to get married, 3) The fans reaction of Ueda’s decision.

I’m sure of number 3, but the former two chapters are still blurry. I asked Anna and she said just make it like Ueda will do. Straight forwardly. Hmm hmm. I’m working on it!

Now that I’m still sitting here in front of this computer, let me write something else while waiting for the inspiration to come.

50 Things About Me :

I really like cats. I think they are the cutest animal on earth.
I don’t like wearing high heels. I feel like I’ll fall every second.
My favorite books : Harry Potter, “What Katy Did and What Katy Did Next”, Hercule Poirot in Agatha Christie, “Samurai : The Castle of Sparrows and Samurai : The Autumn Bridge”, and “Emma” by Jane Austen.
My favorite manga/comic : Detective Conan, Samurai X, Cardcaptor Sakura, Lovely Complex.
I hate fish. I never eat it since I was 6. I can’t stand the smell. I can’t even look at it. When I was in university, I live in a rented room for 4 years. There’s a fish pond in front of the house. Conscious or not, I always avoided looking at it every time I pass by.
I also hate banana. People eat it fresh, Indonesian fried it covered with a mix of egg and flour and make it into cakes, there is even milk with banana flavor! I don’t like all of it.
Five food that I really like : fried chicken. I never got bored with it. Shrimp salad. Noodles! Jakarta’s chicken porridge. It’s super delicious. Soto betawi! Sate Padang. Oh you all should come to Indonesia and taste our food. You’ll fall in love with it.
When I’m stressed out or in a super bad mood, I eat ice cream. My favorite is mint flavor.
I studied economy because it’s my father’s wish. I like it now and feel glad I did that.
I never met my grandfather from my Dad. He died when my father was 15.
I was close with my grandfather from my Mom. He died 6 years ago.
House chore that I could do really well is washing the dishes. LOL.
Food that I cook most often is omelette. Various kinds of omelettes.
My favorite fruit is mango.
I still firmly believe that Harry Potter and Hermione Granger should get together.
My parents used to fight in English, so that their children wouldn’t understand. It made us used to it.
My first love was when I was 11.
I have love only two guys so far.
What I fear most in this life : disappointing my parents
What I want to be in five years : having financial independence!
I’m a KAT-TUN fan for one year and eight months already.
I rather make a speech in front of people rather than sing and dance.
I really want to visit UK and Japan.
I have two friendships that end up with hatred. One in high school, one in university.
I first have a cellphone in 2004.
My height is 158 cm.
My shoe size is 38 (my country’s standard), or 5.
My e-mail is teen_summer@yahoo.com. I’ll be happy if you’ll add me. Please tell me your username in LJ in the intro.
I have a playlist named the “Fighting Spirit”. Consist of songs that I heard to put my spirit back when I’m down.
“When You Believe” by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey is THE ultimate song that could always help me go through hard times.
I write diaries since I was 8.
When I have to wake up at night, I drink orange juice. The sour taste works better for me than coffee.
My favorite soda drink is Sprite.
I prefer silver than gold.
I prefer skirts than slacks.
My favorite accessory is bracelet.
Favorite colors : pink and light blue
Most worst outbursts : throwing my shoes to the window and made the curtains fall from the hanger. Throwing my bag to a glass table and it shattered to pieces. Also throwing my shoe from a 10 meters distance to a wall, LOL. All of these happened when I was in high school.
I’m so bad at sports. Really. I’m clumsy and awkward in any kind of sports. I mean it.
My blood type is A.
I think my strongest point is with words and talking to people. I really can persuade people and make people comfortable by talking to them.
My favorite thing to do is writing. Therefore my dream job is a novelist.
I choose villas in the cool mountain than the beach for vacation spot.
I wrote resolutions every new year. Most of the time it is fulfilled.
My hair is usually long, reaching my back. But now it’s quite short, almost not reaching my neck.
I have asthma. It was rather bad when I was a child. Now I rarely have asthma attack. The attacks are usually because I had a cold for days, really tired, large amount of dust, eating oily food too much, or when I’m really worried about something.
I’m currently reading the manga “Angel Sanctuary” by Kaori Yuki.
I like keeping messages. I don’t delete my inbox in my cellphone until there is no more space. And I put the e-mails from my friends that I like and LJ comments in my e-mail account.
I don’t wear glasses. My eyes are normal though I excessively use it with reading and looking at the computer all day. Coincidentally, I always think people who wear glasses are cool.
I usually sleep at night around 23.00.

Finished at May 15, 2008. Haha. I could write one chapter of Ueda’s Tale in two hours (when I’m sure of what to write). But I need a month to write 50 things about myself! Thank you so much for reading this. I will be happy to read yours too if you write it.

Life Report May-early June

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 03:29:31 GMT

Because everybody posted and I haven't :

Fangirling comments from May-early June. And yeah, life. Like 30%. Don't let life intrude fangirling. No, joudan you. But fangirling is more exciting. Than life? LOL. Okay, I'll stop blabbering.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Still in “Don’t U Ever Stop” Theme :

“You know what, Akakame for you!”. Somebody said in LJ, that in the third minute of “DUES”, in the rap part, you can hear that line. Like so many other people I think, I was completely thrown to excitement. At first I thought, “No way, that’s not possible!”. So I played DUES again and tried to listen to it. And there really was that line! Uwaaah! That’s surprising! I asked Kinta to do that, and she heard that too. I asked Anna to try that, and she heard that too! Surely this can’t be me and my sister’s delusion, right? I considered that maybe the person who uploaded that song edited it and inserted that part. But that line also appeared in the PV. So I think it’s real. What is the meaning of promoting Akame—or Akakame as they said it—in a song? To make the fans happy I think, no else. And to tell that Kame and Jin are still good friends. All is well in KAT-TUNdom. Yay!
I watched Yukan Club again and found that I ship Miroku/Yuri. I searched everywhere for a fanfic about them. But I found none! Why? I found one Seishiro/Yuri fanfic, but none of Miroku/Yuri! Am I the only one in the world who shipped them? Somebody please make a fanfic about them! I beg you! I want to! But I have found no idea to write. I want that to be like another case for Yukan Club where we could also see that Miroku and Yuri care for each other. Until I found an idea, I pray that somebody else will write about them. Please! Onegai shimasu!
Hm, hm, hm. I was hopping around the net when I found a rumour that Emi Suzuki, the girl that played in Yukan Club as Kizakura Karen, was dating with Matsumoto Jun. Is it true, anyone? Somebody could answer me? I’m too lazy to find more. As far as I could gather up, fangirls of Matsujun said it wasn’t true.
I went to several interviews, a series of tests, and two psychotests. For three companies. Company A is for Finance Staff, a large company, but sadly the location is scary. It’s in the harbour, with lots of scary men, lots of trucks and trailers (I’m scared when I go with my friend in a motorbike and those big trucks squeezing us in the middle), and far from the access to the bus. I’m scared to imagine what will I do I have to work overtime. But it’s a very good company. One of the biggest in the city, a shipping company. Oh well I don’t know…just see if I’m accepted or not.

Company B is a company that produces pipes. A big company too. The office is in a building at the center of the city. It’s for Sales Administration. Not the sales who go out and meet prospective clients. I don’t think I could do that. But the staff that works in the office and back up the marketing.

Company C is an international bank. I really want to be accepted in this one. Since it’s been one of my dreamjobs to work in a bank.

Overall, just please pray for me that I will get a job soon.

(Warning : NTV hasn’t confirmed this. So please still treat this as a rumour. Though Nakama Yukie said this is true). Gokusen The Movie! There will be a movie of Gokusen with the players from all the three seasons, and it will be played early next year. Yaaay! Kame and Jin in one screen again! Plus Nakama Yukie! Oh! Life is beautiful!
One Pound Gospel. Finished watching in three days. Really love it. Funny and adorable. Kame was stupid and kawaii beyond words. And Kuroki Meisa is my current angle of the month. Will make a post of this dorama.
PV Don’t U Ever Stop! SUGOOOOOIIIII!!!!! I think the fact that made me really love this PV is because this PV used so many models. And girls too! I’ve been wanting to see KAT-TUN dance with girls ever since I watched Jin dancing with a cyber girl when he sing “Murasaki” in Kaizokuban. What I thought back then well was, “Wow, if Jin is so hot dancing with cyber girl, it will be supreme hot if he dances with a real girl”. And finally in DUES PV I got to see KAT-TUN danced with girls! They are so cool! I like their dance. And KAT-TUN using so many people as models feel like they are in a higher class now. I’m glad.

I think the idea of the PV is about people being hypnotized and froze in time with that small crystal ball. And the lady in white was some kind of the controller of time, like a witch, and KAT-TUN were sent to destroy the crystal balls and making everybody move, and alive again. The time was stopped and KAT-TUN make it go again.

So about each one of them :

Maru : He is adorable as always. I know he looks just like the same but with a good costume. Whatever, I adore Maru.
Ueda : Ufufufufu……Hahahahahaha! I love Tat-chan. I really do! And he was sexy with that white outfit! He’s cool without doing anything much anyway. I really like him. I have my favorite moments of him during the PV. Especially the dance during the bridge part—you know, after the second chorus—and when he was standing at the bar surrounded by girls.
Koki : Koki and his jacket. Is Wow.
Junno : Honestly, Junno is SO handsome and sexy here. I think this is his best PV yet. The short dark brown hair matched him. Argh! I want to hug him!
Jin : Well, Jin will always be Jin. I like his hair. Very artistic. The costume fits him. He always looks best in a jacket suit. I think anyone who saw this PV without being a KAT-TUN fan will notice him the most. He is gorgeous.
Kame : I protest! I hope Kame will never again look down during dancing in any performance. I want to see his face! And I can’t see his face because he looked down during the chorus dance. But he was so sexy when he danced with a girl in the end. Though all he did was just shaking his shoulders, LOL! The impression stuck in my mind for days!

One day, I was struck by a violent Kame/Ayase mood and an idea to write a fanfic about them was knocking my brain for a whole day. I tried to brush it off because I was trying to write Ueda’s Tale. But finally I lost and wrote it. I’m happy I wrote it. Especially because it’s my first one shot. The shortest fanfic I have ever made. I think it’s harder to make a short fanfic than a long one. Because we have to tell everything we want to tell in several pages.
And see, just a day after I wrote that, I heard the news that Ayase will guest in Cartoon KAT-TUN. Yippeeee! Kame and Ayase together again! Though I haven’t seen it yet. I’m really looking forward to watch it.
Maru is accepted in Waseda! Studying environment. He chose the e-learning class. He said that he will graduate even if it will take eight years. He was studying for several months and accepted with good marks. I’m so proud of Maru! He did said several times that he is concerned with the environment’s condition that gets worse these years, and finally decided to learn it in university because he cares so much. But he said that his job is still his number one priority. I’m wishing you the best for your study, Maru! And with you job too. Stay healthy, though! Ganbatte ne!
But there’s also a sad news, that Koki finally resigned from his university. He can’t manage to go to campus while working, since his university is in Chiba and he is working in Shibuya everyday. It took 1,5 hours to go to his campus and he couldn’t find the time to do that. I’m so sorry. Well, I hope this is the best for Koki.
Jin will be the seiyuu (voice cast) for “Speed Racer” in Japan. Omedetto gozaimasu Jin! I hope they pay you a lot!
Thomas and Uber Cup of Badminton were held in Jakarta. And Indonesia just managed to make it into the semi final (for Thomas) and Finals for Uber. Both lost to China. Ah…I was sad that the Uber Cup lost. They were trying so hard! Oh well. Better next time! It’s fun that Indonesia thrown into one spirit for one week, supporting our team to win.
I watched Love Revolution, Liar Game, and Deru Toko Demasho.
Love Revolution was a story about Kyoko, a 33 years old brilliant surgeon who works in a distinguish hospital. She is well paid, smart, sure of herself and a serious, sincere, doctor. Though her career is successful, her love life is bad. While Suga, is a famous TV journalist that used everything to gain the hot news. Including seducing related women to the news. Suga and Kyoko met, the playboy and the surgeon, and their relationship had to be built amidst all those insecurities about sharing a life together. Plus several people to mingle in their relationship.

This movie made me like Esumi Makiko, who played Kyoko. She is a charming woman, and a great actress. I’m rather shock to see Naohito Fujiki as the playboy Suga after the cool Buchou in Hotaru no Hikari.

Liar Game. A very interesting story. It kept me thinking of “How it will gonna be” all the time. Matsuda Shota was cool, and Kanzaki Nao is adorable. In the end it’s a game of good and bad and which will win. Nao said, “I believe there is a way for everybody in this world to be happy. If nobody hurt anyone, that it will be accomplished”. It’s a very realistic question. Will you choose honesty or money? Will you do anything to be rich? I like how Liar Game is very realistic. Because people do get cruel when it’s about money. Almost all of the time.

We really need more people like Nao in this world.

And I just have to say this. “Kanzaki Nao”? So Kanzaki Hiroto and Tsukioka Nao got married and named their daughter Nao too? So there you go, Kanzaki Nao.

One day, after I went to a job interview, and was waiting for my bus, I was approached by a middle aged man. He was trying to take me to lunch, take me to drink coffee, take me to chat, take me shopping. “Come on, let’s have a little chat inside”. I was saying my no politely in the beginning and in the end I snap at him, “No, I don’t want to!”. He was looking at me in “that way” which freaks me out even in daylight. And the bus was very long in coming. I was so relieved when it came and I quickly jumped in. You know what, when I pass that street again, it appeared that I was standing in front of a small hotel. What was he thinking, that I was selling myself? I took care not to stand in front of that hotel again the next time I was there.
My aunt’s 16 years old cat, Evelyn, died on May 21. She died because of tumor. My aunt brought her to a vet, even to a vet hospital, but there was nothing to be done. My aunt is devastated and really sad. The cat accompanied her life for 16 years. Since before she was married, where she was still learning to be a dentist, and then married, and then moved to Kalimantan, and back again to Jakarta. The cat was not just a pet, it was her friend too. It’s sad. I saw Evelyn since I was 8. At least she is not in pain anymore. Thank you for staying beside my aunt for so long!
The gas price in Indonesia went higher. In consequence, public transport is more expensive, groceries too. My family really had to struggle to meet daily needs. I sometimes want to whine “God, when will this end?”. Well, but there are people in worse condition, so I think my family is still lucky. Is this happening in your country too?
DUES Solos. I really like Lovejuice, Without Notice, and Ai no Hana. Lovejuice has naughty lyrics and I imagine Jin made a solo PV with a foreign girl who has green eyes. And yeah, Jin speaking English is so hot. Without Notice is very light and easy for the ears. I like it. And Kame sang it with his full flirty mode on. His voice is just different from when he was singing other KAT-TUN songs. Compare 16 seconds and Kizuna. Different voice. Can you see what I mean? And in without notice, all those laughing, those Chuchuchu, and the “kimi ga hoshiiiiiiiiii ga”. Hehehe.

I really love Ai no Hana. It’s a beautiful song. Rather sad. But beautiful. A good song to hear before you sleep. Parasite is so hard rock and I like the fact that Koki got to scream as much as he wants. Natsu no Bashou is so summer feeling song. Smack is a cute song. Very sweet. Maru does make sweet songs ne? The song grown in me.

Queen of Pirates is an album with various genre. Ranging from ballads to rock. I also like the fact that they don’t put any solo in the song. I think they are in the mood to sing together. I know, this means that the solo songs from “DUES” will be their solos in concert. But still, their songs together are more because of it. Whatever. You get the idea. TTUN got bigger singing parts too, which I’m glad. And I think that Koki’s rap this time is super cool. He somehow improved himself.

This also means that Jin will perform Lovejuice and Kame will sing Without Notice. And Ueda with his Ai no Hana. Yay!

The first time I heard Taboo, it was paralyzing. Seriously. I really like the intro. I imagine a pirate ship sailing on a stormy sea. This will be a good concert opening. And the song. I love it! But my favorite song, maybe like many other fans, is “Affection”. Very US Pop, easy to hum to all day, and just my type of song. And I think using the girl’s voice is a very smart idea. Her voice does sound like Vanessa Hudgens and so in synch with Kame and Jin’s voices. She made this song as good as it is. Though I wonder, would KAT-TUN be able to bring her in the concert? Will all the fans mobbed her down? No, I don’t think so. It’s rather impossible for her to actually appear in KT concert ne? A pity. I would like to see KT sing with her on stage.

Hell, No. I like this song, What is the genre? Pop rock? My favorite Koki’s rap of the album. I haven’t read the translation. But why that Kame and Jin’s voice is rather rough here? To follow the rock tunes?

Distance. I think this is not a typical song for young people. They are trying to sing a song that even the people in their thirties or forties will like. They said in an interview that they want to listeners range to broaden.

Mother/Father. Kame’s favorite song. He even considered making this song his solo in DUES. I like easy listening ballads. It’s soothing. And after I read the translation, I like this song even more. It tells about a feeling of respect and love that we feel more after we grew up. We feel it more because now we can understand why they took that decision or lecture us about this and that. Because they only want us to be happy and stay out of trouble. And this song also mentioned a sadness in realizing that our parents grew much older in the recent years. A song that will touch your heart.

Un—sounded like a full of spirit song. It’s a song that will make me feel in high spirit.

Our Story is so pop. And I like the guitar in this song.

Nannen Tattemo is sooo Maru’s type of song. His song starting from Jinx, Key of Life, to Smack always sound like this. Though what kind of song it is, I can’t properly define. Easy to listen to. Upbeat pop? And Koki’s rap here is so cool! I love Koki more because of his rap here in this album.

Shot is jazzy, right. I honestly say, that when I first listened to this song from SC Premium, I pronounced the song is bad and KT is weird for singing that—by the way, you do notice that I tend to shorten KAT-TUN with KT right? It doesn’t just mean Kamenashi Tanaka or Kamenashi Taguchi. I love them all—but I say I like it now. Something different, but good anyway.

12 O’clock. Their voices are changed a little by those recording tools. I like Jin’s prologue.

Ai no Command. A rock song again. Though it’s just hard sounded in the chorus. And a very disturbing translation about graphic s** description. With what expressions will they sing this song at the concert? LOL. Oh KAT-TUN, grown up now and all that.

I found this juicy news. I know that rumors could be true or just a stupid joke. But I tend to believe rumors about girls. Maru is currently approaching Takashima Aya, the announcer of Mezamashi TV. She seemed to go to Waseda too, but I don’t know if this is relevant since Maru is taking correspondent study anyway. And Maru tried to ask her before, but she rejected him. I searched for her pics and she is pretty enough. And four years older than Maru (born in 1979).
Nami Tamaki is Koki’s ex. She is a singer, quite famous too. I searched her pics, I think she’s cool. A singer, a skillful dancer, and rather dark skin. Sooo Koki. Not gravure model but still, maybe Koki liked her because of they have music and dancing in common. The paparazzi saw Koki entering her house in April. Maybe they got together again?
Koizumi Kyoko is dating Ninomiya Kazunari from ARASHI now. At least that’s what the paparazzi reported. They were seen drinking together in a bar. They both got close since playing in stage play together. Since she is Kame’s Ex I was “WHAT?”. From Kame to Nino is somewhat…..(further comment you can imagine yourself, I’m not saying it). At least this confirmed that she is really not dating Kame anymore. Kame, Kame. Go get another girl. I won’t relax until I heard rumor that you are dating a very cool looking girl in Shibuya. Seriously. Sakai Ayana, who he dated for four years married Tetsu from L’arc En Ciel earlier this year. I think he broke up with Kyon around that time. Why? The real one is married it’s empty to date her lookalike anymore (I’m saying something scandalous but yeah, I still say that Kyon and Ayana really look alike)? And now Kyon is dating Nino. Everybody has moved on, now please give me a picture of you and a cute sexy girl in your arm so I can be happy and think that you have moved on too and not just drowning yourself in your work.
My laptop got a virus and I’m trying to catch it.
Currently in a writing block state for Ueda’s Tale. I hope I can figure it out soon.
Katsumi, are you alright? I’m worried. Write something soon ne.
Outburst of the day : it's been two months and I haven't got a new job. I'm getting worried. Maybe if after my birthday, July 25, I'm still jobless, I will have to go to Jakarta again and find a job there. It's sickening to think about this. But I'm 24, I have to work! I'm not helping my parents by being jobless, though it sure is happy to live with them and Kinta and Reza. I would give anything to block my mind from thinking about this. To forget that I'm a grown up and just close my ears from what I have to do. It's not that I don't apply for jobs. But I haven't been lucky. I will give this a very serious thought first, though. And then I'll tell my family. I need a week to think.